lazyantics chapter 15

heard some news again that more people from the store is getting transferred... sadness begins to flow in deep and strongly again... second reshufflement going to come in already... and they always like to choose a time when the team has stabled down so fine and wonderfully... This TEAM is great... remembering the 1st ever day I started working in toys r us.. erwan orientated me and he was at that time quiet but nonetheless I learnt alot from him and he's my mentor... faizul.. i admire his style in working... I like the way he controlled and command the staffs to great efficiency... he's absolutely powerful... especially his scolding.. and bubbly linda.. without her there's wouldn't be someone so nice and lends such a great listening ear... dun look down on yourself... ya're 1 great supervisor... then there's hafiz... who me and sylvia actually taught him and now he's one key player.. good merchandising and speedy worker.. azmil.. when i first saw him.. i find him smelly... haha... but after that.. he's a great brother... and my cina adek siya who loves disturbing me but she's like blur and cock.. seeing her face alone coulda make me laugh.. haha.. zhuo wei nice brother who's not calculative and treats everyone with due respect... freddy tan who i always scold and always regretted.. and boss.. thanks for pushing me and teaching me about self confidence and belief... ya have this ability to build a great team.. everything u said is about teamwork and how we worked hand in hand... seriously under your guidance I have learnt alot of things.. even though I have disappointed you so many times but you never gave up on me and even promoted me to supervisor.. though shocked and astonished... I hope what I have done in the past few months had justified your trust in me... and alot of staffs who have lent me a hand and seriously help to get me to what i have achieved today... never have a chance to say all these before to you people but deep down in my heart... i bow and salute to you people.. thanks for everything.. you people make it special for me.. without you people i'm nothing... i love forum 4203 and I thought I never will... but it really did happens... cos u people realised this wonderful piece of history... i love u guys...

lazyantics chapter 14

off day after a heretic saturday where PIs and freaking ass-some customers conquer... lotsa customer service and a never die-down crowd... we hit the target and overshot by like almost 20k... good sales... but the customers are like arrogant and retarded... got really pissed by some of them.. freaking chinamen who don't want to buy their own country made stuffs... woke up late today to regain energy after 3 consecutive full shifts.. my next off day is on thursday.. tomorrow is full shift day again... argh... have to wake up early and she is coming back tomorrow.. missing someone really ain't easy job... another 7 mins to 2 am and i'll be going to bed.. don't wanna be late tomorrow cos linda working tomorrow morning shift.. haha... will be fun... but audit points again... shitty... hope tomorrow boss will be in a good mood again... hit sales budget again... go back early and enjoy myself for the remaining days... i realy hate this feeling of counting down the days.... haixxx.....

lazyantics chapter 13

saturday today... freaking busy day and today is irwan's last day at forum.. he's getting transferred to suntec... feeling really down... like this family is spilting up again like what have already happened to tampines.. first it was razali then irwan and the next one will be me already... feeling real speechless... got no one to like talk to.. how i wish she was here so she will listen... argh.. time passes really fast... another week is gone just like this... 2 weeks later i'm going to start my new life... i am feeling so lost noe... i really miss her now... cos i hope i can talk to her about how i sam feeling.. whatever.. off to bed...

lazyantics chapter 12

finally went back to work after 3 off days.. seriously I don't feel like working but I want to earn this amount of money before i go in.. I want to make sure I have some money set aside for my mom when I'm not around... cleared the whole freaking stagging and the toilet lane alone today.. woah.. feels so good when I cleared so many things.. counting down the days.. most probably about another 18 days only.... time passes really fast especially when it's like counting down.. boss is in a good mood today.. haha.. when he's in a good mood.. I felt that things go much more smoothly... haha... just envious why he can come to work late then go back at 5.30... good life eh.. did like pumping and sit ups yesterday.. today my arms was like OUCH!! whatever la.. I'm gonna continue this.. thoughts came into my mind today.. I want to try something I never try before.. waiting for a someone for 2 years or more.. regardless of the possible disappointment at the end or maybe a much welcomed celebration.. I just felt I really want to do this not for myself but for my heart... have been like dwelling around.. caught up with different people but nonetheless none have any outcome.. I think that good things are really meant to fight and wait for.. no matter how long.. mind felt really so free... mark my words.. I'll do the best I can... I'll wait...

lazyantics chapter 11

haven been blogging for like few days.. went out with my brother and my bestest friend yesterday.. went to book a bbq pit.. it's confirmed.. my farewell bbq is on 10 march friday at east coast park.. nice place... came up with shopping list.. woohoo.. getting me so worked up about this... went about town with them.. was real fun.. chatting and we came up with a new name for the group.. revolisherlocks.. ain't it cool.. haha.. no shit sherlock... we talked about the what might happened when i go for my national service.. funny shit like gays... funny stuffs la.. like when u bathe and u drop your soap.. don't bend down and pick it up or ya'll feel a sharp pain in your ass!! haha.. what the hell.. funny and scary.. then walked around looking for ring.. feel like getting a ring.. don't know why... was real cool man the 3 of us... i am really an idiot.. took alot of pictures.. memories are cool... man.. i got another 20 days.. really need to enjoy myself.. go out with people i seldom meet.. catch up the old times.. and cherish all those I'm having.. went out with freddy today for swimming.. freaking shocking though.. haha.. i think alot of people wouldn't expect that i'll be out with freddy... ya he was right... helping me have bonded our friendship somehow.. I always scold freddy at work but I don't mean to.. I draw a clear line over good work and play outside... but overall freddy is a nice guy... very sporting and nice to talk to.. i really did enjoyed the conversations today with him... treat him like a brother.. he actually fell twice into the pool and said he did it on purpose.. haha... he faked.. i can see he lost his footing.. haha.... found him naked.. freddy got no armpit hair.. has puberty hit him? haha... He was doing some silly actions inside the freaking cubicle.. haha.. caught him.. haha.. maybe that's what i might be going to experience inside national service... fun la.. dead right seriously enjoyed myself today even though was for a short 4 hours... freddy is a self-aclaimed panadol... haha.. whatever la.. heard from linda irwan is gonna get transferred to suntec.. y is that so? I dun understand.. forum is seriously lacking of staffs and now 1 more full timer have left and he's a good player in the store.. able to take care of certain important matters... fuck.. what's wrong with the management? I remember they spilt up tampines when I was there cos the reason?? we were too strong... sales was beating forum... wth.. then y should they spilt up... ya right.. most of us did benefit from it.. all got promotion but for me I would rather have the old times when me sylvia, dan, hsien, alison, bernard, chris, val, sharon, widzuan all have supper after night stacks... we even worked hard together just to get all these suppers going on... why should they do this? they should take out the black sheep and really get the store the best possible... after irwan gonna be me already... fuck man... I swear i will become the store director next time.. it's my dream always to work in toysrus but I will want to make a great store... and I will keep my best staffs.. and build a great team.. I will... and I'm gonna miss u these people... I love u guys...

lazyantics chapter 10

woah.. had a really tiring week.. victor my manager actually forgot to plan me off.. so I have been working from last sunday till yesterday... it feels shitty.. lack of sleep.. lack of staffs.. this really tires me out.. maybe i can get used to some training at national service.. wasn't such a happening week.. but was wondering why do guys have so much girls' problems cos was talking to azmil and faizul about it.. what we have experienced and gone thru.. there's alot of mistakes that we might have made in life sometimes.. but we actually learnt from these mistakes.. maybe it's part of growing up.. talk about my problem.. i'm not even sure whether it's a problem.. liking a person can also be hurting.. every word she said.. every action she take will affect you.. I'm not even sure where i'm heading to.. whether it's gonna work out.. but i won't give up... although i suffer a major heartbreak on vday.. but I don't know why I can't.. talked to azmil about it.. and he said that if it was him and he has a gun.. he woulda shot himself dead on the spot.. I felt that too.. furthermore I don't have all the time in the world as I'm going into ns soon.. and I can't actually be able to see her or ask her out that often anymore.. argh.. come to think of it.. I'm aching.. sat down outside borders for 3 hours.. thinking abt things.. I still don't know what i should do.. somehow she gave me a feeling that she's trying to make me give up.. I son't really know... argh.. forget it... stop thinking about it...

lazyantics chapter 9

heys.. today is valentine's day and it could be a really sad day for me... I was kinda looking forward to it even though it was a half chance given by her but nonetheless that half chance gave me excitment... I spent last night writing a song.. editing here and there... till 6 .. I was really tired and I have morning shift too... not a bad day at work... went down to receive truck with linda and we talked alot.. crapped alot.. I really enjoyed working with linda cos she's really nice to talk to and really cares for her friends.. I'm really damn happy to have her... went for break late.. when i came back.. there was still alot of work to be done and I really like wanted to finish all by 6 as I really wanted to watch a movie with her.. I started to rush and rush thru all my work... with the mindset of going out with her later... I just want to finish all by 6.. it was really fast and I felt capable.. bullshit.. and then when I was about to go to take the price gun and asked her what's the plans later.. I saw her friend with a bouquet of flowers for her.. omg.. tat really shatters my heart.. I turned back and went back into the stagging.. I dunno what to do and who to turn to.. si ya called and like ask me how was the plans later.. I said i failed.. I was late and I just dunno what to say.. I called linda and ask her to come stagging to accompany me.. I felt really devastated.. When linda was consoling me, I was holding back the tears.. I dunno why my eyes were watery.. I was trying my best to hold it back... linda was there consoling me and she too looked like she was gonna cry.. I'm touched.. I really was like banging into corners.. Argh.. punched cartons and cartons just to vent my disappointment.. was crazy.. went to dinner with linda after that.. talked about alot of things.. i actually wamted to crush the song and throw it away.. I really put in my efforts but I just feel it wasn't enough.. was real sad but im the end i still pass it to her.. just feel like letting her know despite the outcome.. I am really so serious.. never felt this way before.. It's hurting and painful.. maybe it isn't important to her but it does to me.. argh.. whatever la.. It's over.. but tjis feeling really sucks.. my brother accompany me.. talked to me and consoled me.. My brother is really great.. give me a hug.. and listened.. I dunno how things will be.. I can't give up... fcuk.. haixxxxxx............

untitled yet:::::
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell you I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line?
(Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line?
(Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line?
(Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

It totally am what I'm feeling now... nite guys.. and thanks to those who stand by my side and lend me their courage... i love u guys...

lazyantics chapter 8

ok guys.. It's official.. I'm getting enlisted on the 14th of march.. got enlisted into police.. I???!! A police!!!?? haha.. I think the law gonna get turned upside down.. about another 31 days of enjoyment and I'm getting into a whole new surrounding.. I really wonder how I'll actually react and blend into this new place... i really can't bear to leave toys yet smd I think i'm gonna ask boss whether I can come back and work part time.. haha.. crazy me.. somehow although sometimes i complain that the job is tiring and boring but I like to work here cos I like to do merchandising and I find satisfaction in it.. overall I'm happy... actually there's an incident in the morning tat happened tat got me smiling all the way on the cab for meeting.. but I just found out it means nothing much actually.. argh.. forget it.. maybe it wasn't to be.. got tricked by this miss yinyin as she told me her results suck and I was like worried about it.. She actually got 13 for 6 subjects.. that's not bad.. congrats to her.. every single day to me is very precious..I'm going to sing k later with yy later... haha...

Things I wanna do in this month:::::
1. Sing my heart out
2. Oasis concert
3. train up my stamina
4. Get a valentine (not possible)
5 Spend time with my close friends
6. Meet up my bros.
7. Clubbing with linda
8. Treat newton
9. Get that destiny gundam.
10. Try not to cry out on my last day.

lazyantics chapter 7

aite.. just got my computer up and running again.. I got a whole lotsa stuffs to write about... there's alot of stuffs that happened.. zabrina came back and she went for the sentosa outing that I organised.. played beach soccer.. had alot of fun cos there's alot of people who went for it.. think I went totally crazy that day.. but hope they see that after work I'm so amiable and crazy at play.. haha.. there's this funny incident that this old man foreigner was suntanning just by the water and while we're playing.. the water splashed onto him.. He looked like he was coming for me.. but he just threw the ball back.. maybe he shoulda just calmed down.. looked fierce.. we were there for about 6 hours or so but it was fun swimming, playing and chatting.. it kinda brought us closer to each other.. then came chinese new year.. bought alot of stuffs.. obey to xlarge to revoltage to surrender to stussy... i think i spent a hell lotsa money.. decided to save up.. back to work.. march is coming and I gotta go off really soon.. 4 years in this company.. I've learnt alot of things.. teamwork.. self-discipline.. functioning as a efficient unit and knowing new friends.. cool friends who have made a great impact in my life.. thanks to these people like syl.. dan.. xian.. ali.. faizul.. lin.. erwan.. su.. ken.. yoke.. hafiz and boss and alot more la.. it's like i'm living out these memories.. I'm stepping into another phase in my life.. but i'll miss these guys..