lazyantics chapter 19

i felt kinda down though i booked out for this week... this feeling of "?" someone is so hurting and no matter what I do... I just can't seem to free myself out of this... I did try really hard and do all I can but to no avail... sometimes i felt real stupid... what is the thing that I really want... am I too easily pleased and too easily satisfied.. I felt real useless with myself... I really dunno what to do and what am I doing now.. I am not happy.. why is this bringing me so much misery... am I too "?" already... it's the first time I have this kinda feeling... man... why could this happen to me... watched a movie with faizul, zhuo wei and delvin... watched failure to launch... a nice movie... wonder if there's any difference to the reality... I hope mine could be like this too... going to book in later again.. another 5 days of intensive training... really hates the bloody training... just hope that 2 years will pass really really fast... hope this coming week will turn out real fine and i'll get to book out again.. it's so precious for me... meeting up with my close brothers... man.. without them.. i think the feeling will be even worse... thanks to you guys i feel much better... thanks for everything.. for always being there.... i hope i can conquer myself soon...