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my computer had failed me again and I have simply no time to get the technician down to get it fixed... finally it's working again thanks to me parting with a large part of my measly pay... was deployed at the airport for a whole 2 months due to the IMF event.. it was great.. my national service life seem to have changed.. haha.. airport is a cool place for national service.. you get to look at pretty girls.. you get to eat good food.. haha.. what else do i need... finally back here to get in touch with my friends about my life.. i miss u guys but I'm just so lazy to even go out of my house that I preferred to stay home all the time and be stuck with my games.. hope to meet up with faizul, su and zhuo wei soon.. it's like about 3 months since we met..........................................

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Alrite... pictures are uploaded perfectly... I have really nice memories of camp... my OC ismail who has been really good to me.. my soccer mates and all my bunk mates... I love you all... I don't know when will be the next time I'll see you guys again but I'll always remember u guys always... BUNK 8 IS THE BEST OF THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lazyantics chapter 33

been a long time since I blogged.. basically just too tired and nothing much have been happening.. so the latest update in my life is I already have my posting and it is to airport police.. friday was the day we get our postings and will be sent to the divisions.. it's kinda sad that after 5 months of in camp training, sufferings with my squadmates, the soccer sessions, pt sessions and the talk cock sessions had come to an end... squad 11/06 POC LOR!!!!! I will miss some people who have been really nice and cool like louis, kendron, isham, zhixiang, jordan, andrew, brandon and some others who I'm lazy to list.... u guys rock my world... got my warrant card already and I kinda felt lost when I arrived at the airport division.. it's rather sad that it's a police station outside the airport rather than inside it... I felt so cheated.. new friends, new life, new environment, life is always full of changes.. humans have to really do their best to adapt to them.. I really hope I can do really well in division... gonna go back to division tomorrow again so will keep u guys update soon..

lazyantics chapter 32

officially 21... the step into adulthood.. guess there's not really any difference made.. i still feels the same... but looking back.. I think I made some really bad mistakes and also some matters that I was proud of like... I felt pressurized... I have to start planning for my future carefully like planning what to study.. taking time seriously.. can't dwell anymore... but the most fortunate thing is I have a wonderful family and some really great friends like eng chye, jimmy, zhuo wei, su tian, faizul.. hanging out with them is the greatest thing that can happen.. celebrated my birthday with them last week... i got some really cool presents this year.. My aunt gave me a DKNY watch.. cool.. damn.. i love it! My mom gave me a big red packet.. my grandma gave me some gold.. pure gold chip.. my brother gave me a stussy jacket and zhuowei and siya shared to get a portugal jersey for me... my friends in camp bought me 2 shirts.. nike sb original tee and a christiano ronaldo dri-fit tee... thanks alot guys for all the efforts... met up with my old friends jimmy and dan yesterday.. watched nacho libre... fucking funny piece of shit... although it was rather dumb.. it was nice talking about old days.. the stupid things we've done and how old we are now.. adults.. guess it's good to reminesce about the old days... i love my friends..

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sunday was zhuowei's birthday.. luckily we met that day as we all have a great day.. although we met up quite late but the whole night was amazing.. we went for dinner at cafe cartel.. such a feast!! we ate st louis pork ribs, some doryfish stuff and also chicken cutlet.. haha.. ate up to about 100 bucks... the only 2 pictures took that night.. haha.. zhuowei is a fantastic friend.. it's a great honour to know him.. and he received quite some presents that day too.. he got a pair of puma shoes courtesy from me.. haha.. think that's the one he wanted and also a fossil watch from our pals.. freddy joined us for dinner as well.. we saw him at plaza sing and so we went together.. haha.. we sang a happy birthday song for him inside the restaurant.. it was loud.. haha.. guess zhuowei was so shocked that he blushed.. haha.. funny things.. after that we went to E2 max at cineleisure and booked a chamber.. haha.. crazy like nothing.. played FIFA with del and jus do a pre-show of the world cup final which was due to be shown that night.. haha... there was shoutings here and there.. overall was so fun... haha... my birthday is coming up soon.. jus enjoy outings with my sworn brothers.. they are the greatest things that ever happen to my life...

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2 very important ladies in my life

POP week.. but we didn't get to pass out like the rest.. it was kinda unfair as we came in one month earlier than the squads that pass out and will be there for another month after they all passed out because of the National Day Parade.. worse of all.. we were even asked to go attend the passing out parade.. the feeling sucks.. after passing most of the exams.. life in camp has been rather boring.. lessons everyday.. lotsa lessons.. went to visit my grandma yesterday.. has been about 4 months since I last saw her.. everytime when i book out.. i really wanted to go visit her but it's tiring.. cos she lives rather far.. when i saw her yesterday.. she seems to age alot.. she's already 70 plus.. woah.. how time flies.. but she's still so cute.. haha.. my grandma is the woman i think who is as important as my mom.. cos she took care of me when i was very young.. I got this kinda super-attached feeling to her.. I miss her cooking.. haha.. some shit happens recently.. wanted to keep mom about it.. but seriously there are so many unexpected things that happen... i guess people are the ugliest creatures ever seen... sometimes people close to you USED u and then just dumped you aside.. without showing you respect.. just doing what they felt like without taking into consideration of what others have done for them.. my friends in camp said i'm defensive.. ya, of course I am because there are so many hypocrites and ungrateful people around.. in camp people backstab you.. used harsh words on you.. and outside people close to you just fucking don't care because they already got what they need by using you.. fuck.. seriously.. you are so ugly on the exterior and the interior.. I finally realised that true friends are hard to come by.. cherish them.. but for those who don't deserve your respect and love.. fucking cast them aside.. there's actually no point in talking to them.. but thanks to these people.. I learnt to be defensive and be on my own.. happy birthday to one of my best friend.. CEN ZHUOWEI.. talking about him.. he helps others when they need help.. he lends a listening ear when needed.. he always come up with lame jokes.. he's a great friend.. thanks for always being there.. listening to my problems.. and hope u have a very nice birthday.. hope u like my present too.. brothers forever.. me u and del...

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just changed my blogskin.. seriously very tired now.. shall go to sleep.. life has kinda no meaning now..

lazyantics chapter 28

fcuk.. my keyboard's down... and now i'm using on-screen to blog... seriously nuisance... reason for not blogging for such a long time... past few weeks suck... my body have not been in the best condition... falling ill rather easily... dunno if it's the weather or what... singapore is too small... there's nothing to do and nothing to see... it's incredibly hard to find anything interesting to pass time.. life in camp have been slack.. total slack.. sometimes we find ourselves sleeping the days away.. talking about stuffs... trainng our muscles and running... it's more of our own timetable now... nowadays i'm getting into the soccer craze again just like how i was in secondary school.. i wan to play every week... train up our fitness and enjoy being with my friends... such an idea... just had this game yesterday... won it.. azmil, del, hafiz, zy, peh, ck and me played quite a good game... we can improve though... gonna organise another soon... till then... sayoz

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seriously.. i don't understand why time passes so fast when i book out.. it's jus not enough... received a shocking but pleasant news this week.. my blood brother delvin and my godsister LEE SIYA are together... so happy and yet so shocking... haha.. but from the bottom of my heart i really felt so happy for them... u guys have my blessings alright!! they are so matching and so cute... haha.. and they both look so young and going out with them made me feels so old.. cannot make it... haha.. went out with them on friday... so tired... was quite quiet... u guys so loving.. i feel like a lamp-post! haha... some stupid shit happens and i act as if i was angry.. haha.. they fell for it... received this letter and 2 lollipops... haha.. so sweet... dun try that again the both of you... delvin and lee siya.. haha... if u all wan to try at least choose someone better.. haha.. met them again yesterday... went to played pool.. haha.. lee siya can't win me at all... haha.. played time crisis with her also... damn super funny... haha.. and i SCARE her yesterday.. she screamed damn loud but siya's reaction was rather slow.. haha... went to fishermen's yesterday and took alot of pictures.. zhuo wei was super high yesterday though he didn't drank at all.. so hyper-crazy... take some stupid pictures also... was damn fun yesterday... the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE is here but with my miserable pay.. i can't do what i like which is shopping.. haha... f*k... how i wish i wasn't in ns now!!

lazyantics chapter 27

slacked at home the whole day man.. i am such a good child today... i talked to my mom till about 2am last night.. talked about my brother.. tell her about his problems and all.. my brother is a filial and mature guy but I really hope he puts in more efforts in his studies... i hope he gets good results... i can see that my mom is worried about his studies cos she really wants to see him thru to university.. i promised to buy del a new phone if he get good results for his mid-year.. and on top of that.. see my mom with a smile... cos she will be really happy about it.. bro.. do this for me can? we should appreciate our parents and seriously I really felt I have the BEST and greatest parents ever.. even though we are not wealthy or whatsoever.. I think that my mom have taught me a lot of values about life and all... I have learnt alot.. I want to be a parent like them one day.. mom & dad... thanks for everything you all have done to raise me up.. I love you all... bro... do your best ok.. this is my birthday wish... today was like a movies day.. HBO has really nice shows today.. watched blade:trinity in the morning.. Honey in the afternoon and Shark tale at nite.... movies day at home... feels so relaxed.. and glad I accompany my mom the whole day.. I even cleaned up the house for her.. I vaccumed and mopped the whole place... yeah.. i love my mom.... i wish i can be a kid forever.. wonder what i will do without her... i want to give her the best in life... my dad is so cute... haha... he was like saying to me " Don't you think your mom is so sensitive nowadays?" haha... and I replied that " No... my mom is the best... u are too sensitive... haha." my father just smiled and say she bribed you this week... he will bribe me the next.. haha.. stupid... fun to be at home.. I enjoyed myself... haha... talked to su online jus now.. got alot of stuffs to tell her... she haven't been herself for so long... where is your smile gal? hope she become her old self again.. Su.. ya're special ok... ya made the people around you comfortable.. that's what u can do.. ya're great.. man... I'm so happy with my life.. I got alot of people around me who cares about me... i am the happiest guy on weekends!! haha... gonna book in tomorrow again.. will be coming out soon.. life is wonderful.... yeah!!

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time seems to pass really fast nowadays.. another day have passed... went to sentosa today... haven been there for a long time... wanted to find a nice place to relax and spend as little as possible.. really feels so good dressing up so relaxingly on saturdays... no worries and all... played soccer with del's friends and talked to zhuo wei about stuffs... yeah.. the man's back!!! he has returned!! think he have found his old self again... talking more again.. that's the way to go bro... really relaxing.. sat down there.. went for swimming.. played silly games with zhuo wei... haha... we tried to hit each other head with the volleyball... in the water where we couldn't even like stand properly.. felt really good with the workout today... and then we went to bathe in this toilet.. the strange thing is that the public can see us bathing from some angles.. and it's was like girls are walking around here and there.. real stupid toilet... but we just bathe and crapped along.. went back home after that.. felt really shagged though.. need some sleep now.. good nite....

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yeah... bookout again... my stay in hta is coming to an end... somehow i feel like i can stay inside longer... haha... crazy... was like complaining all the time i want out when i just got in... but i guess it takes time to adapt to a totally new environment.. but somehow some of the things inside still saddens me.. very low team spirit... got alot of things to catch up... need to learn as many things as possible... been in very bad health recently.. coughing for a month already.. and what.. the doc said my asthma is coming back.. totally shit... it's like 10 long years... got inhaler... how the hell like am i gonna use that... haha... met siya for movie with delvin again.. watched x-men 3:the last stand.. wasn't that hyped up like what it was made out to be but the actions wasn't bad.. but somehow just wasn't the kinda movie i expected it to be... siya complained my shoulder was too hard.. that's the way it's been since young.. my shoulders are stiff.. bad eh... haha.. siya is so nice.. i am gonna be very so super duper nice to her.. i appreciate that she takes time out to meet me when i book out.. the promise she kept and told me before i went in for national service... sorry sometimes i sound grumpy when i can't meet u.. cos i really want to... ya're sweet.. ya're nice.. ya're everything that a good adek i could have... sometimes just simple things people do for you.. we've to learn to appreciate.. i'm just glad she can see... just feeling so weird.. like something bad gonna happen.. hope it fall upon me and not my closed ones... get this sucky feeling off me please GOD!!! LEE SIYA.... ya're seriously being loved by ur ABANG!!! u bring joy to my life... yeah... if i have a gf.. think she will be jealous of you.... chillz out...

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hey... no pictures this week... but i met siya for the past 3 days.. woah.. that's alot i guess... watched 2 movies... man... at the rate i'm watching movies.. my national service pay ain't gonna last me through... 'over the hedge' and 'da vinci code'... can just say my taste for movies is so mixed.. one cartoon and a fiction show... crazy eh... seriously got nothing much to blog about.. my temper is getting on my nerves.. has been very bad-tempered recently.. wonder what's happening to me... haixx... hope next week will be a better week.. i need to go for de-stress//////

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haha... brothers outing again.. every saturday... supposedly we were planning to go to sentosa.. haha... but because of late nite movies every friday with su and faizul and elyn.. we have been postponing this trip every week.. haha... so we met around 3.. went to play pool for the next 3 hours.. my pool skills kinda improve... i'm playing every weeked to improve myself.. I wanna beat zhuo wei.. only won him once yesterday... del's pool skills actually improve too.. haha.. good for all of us.. went to east coast park jetty and sat there.. nice scenery.. we talked about relationships and also what we planned to do next time.. great time we have... on vesak day.. siya and zhuo wei cut their hair.. man.. siya and zhuo wei look so DIFFERENT... siya is really BEAUTIFUL.. zhuo wei finally got rid of his old-fashioned stuff... zhuo wei has seriously changed alot from the 1st time I saw him.. he looks much better now.. haha.. watched poseidon the stupid boat show.. haha.. ya.. was rather nice.. intense throughout.. next week DA VINCI code.. yeah.. till then.. cya... guys...

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Yeah!! all guys outing yesterday... very cool... just spend a simple evening together... went to parkway parade... man.. SHIT HAPPENS!! haha... saw this really cute girl when i stepped out of the arcade... holyshiet.. we were like locking eyes at each other... somehow i really feel something just from that look and I even went to the extent of following her around the mall with my brother... then I lost her... man.. we went searching around the mall... man.. no where to be found.. i'm gonna go there every weekend.. i hope i can see her again though... feel real unlucky this week.. everything's just not right.. on the bus to pasir ris..... it rained real heavily and me and zhuo wei was like shet.. how are we gonna go to fishermen village in this weather... we talked about watermelons, moles and hair on the bus.. haha... some stupid stuffs.. haha... only the 3 of us will understand.. took pictures at the place.. talked.. i drank a jug of tiger.. haha.. was real fun.... nice place with music.. slack there.. eat... leisure man.... the 3 of us swear to GOD to become brothers.. haha... we will strive and do our very best.. we will live together one day.. watch soccer match together... haha.. take turns to use the house... LOL... nice thoughts.. yeah... a new beginning for all of us... the 3 of us just rocks.. who need them in our lives.. we are too colorful for u people.... stop dis-appreciating us... ya'll regret soon enough to understand what we mean....

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last entry before i go for booking in again.. will be having confinement which means I will be in for 2 weeks straight.. man.. a straight 11 days.. sucky... wonder that this week lies ahead for me... somehow i prefer doing physical training rather than drill training.. my feet hurts after all those stamping.. hopefully this 11 days will pass really really fast.. bought a digital camera last week for 450 bucks.. the sony cybershot t7.. ultraslim.. jus the one i wanted and my friend jus wanted to sell after using it for 1 time... it looked brand new.. what a snip.. everything works perfectly when i tested it.. went to yy house for mahjong again.. woohoo.. played 24 rounds yesterday.. crazy.. i think my butt went flat.. lol.. sat on the chair for too long.. siya didn't went yesterday so it wasn't that noisy and fun.. miss her craziness.. haha.. her craps.. and pinching her cheeks.. lol.. i'm sorry i didn't send you my regards aite.. i promise to treat u food, candies and movies ok.. lol.. i was talking to zhuo wei and consoling him.. i hope things will turn out fine really soon for him.. after mahjong.. me, del and zhuo wei walked back to sengkang from yy's place.. lol.. crazy.. we sat down near my house and talked till about 3 am before he set off for home.. we're planning an outing soon in 2 weeks time.. maybe sentosa trip.. lol.. can't wait for it.. lol.. ok... gonna bathe and set off for "HELL" again.. see ya guys again...

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Woo.. long weekend.. happy good friday to everyone.. kinda find time hard to come by to blog nowadays... have to really enjoy my weekends to the max.. started my guard of honour training this week.. really tough.. training was long and tiring.. alot of things did happen though.. my aquad is kinda in a mess.. there is no unity.. no teamwork.. disputes among the squad mates.. so many things are bringing the spirit down.. and everywhere we go.. people are like saying this is the guard of honour squad and i think it kinda brng alot of pressure to all of us.. people are taaking more attention of us and the chances of us getting caught is even more frequent.. did live firing just before I book out.. was cool and I think I holster the taurus 85 revolver rather fast though.. it was about 6 when we finish the firing.. was LATE for book out.. went back to change into walkout attitude and rushed to take a cab.. went to yy house after that to celebrate freddy's and fiona's birthday.. happy birthday guys.. played mahjong into the late night.. man.. I really want to spend this long weekend's every min to the max.. went out with yoke and kenneth yesterday as well.. played pool and talked cock all the way.. keep making fun of yoke and su tian.. lol.. yoke was like super PISSED about all this.. keep scolding.. one big sucker.. lol.. went to chillz in store..got shocked by yinyin again.. freak.. 2 times already.. she came up right behind me and just shock me while i was playing games.. went out with su around town.. met up with elyn.. think relationships are scary to get into.. haha.. the stuffs they talked about are so scary if it happens.. end the day watching the movie "take the lead" with faizul, su, del and yoke... cool music.. meaningful as it's about this guy who teaches ballroom dancing volunteers to teach these bunch of detention students who others labelled them as 'rejects' how to dance instead of wasting time.. teach them about confidence.. let them have self-belief.. nice music along the movie.. should go catch it guys.. going over to yy's house again later for mahjong.. yeah.. booking in tomorrow again.. will be in for 2 weeks though.. will miss u guys man...

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i felt kinda down though i booked out for this week... this feeling of "?" someone is so hurting and no matter what I do... I just can't seem to free myself out of this... I did try really hard and do all I can but to no avail... sometimes i felt real stupid... what is the thing that I really want... am I too easily pleased and too easily satisfied.. I felt real useless with myself... I really dunno what to do and what am I doing now.. I am not happy.. why is this bringing me so much misery... am I too "?" already... it's the first time I have this kinda feeling... man... why could this happen to me... watched a movie with faizul, zhuo wei and delvin... watched failure to launch... a nice movie... wonder if there's any difference to the reality... I hope mine could be like this too... going to book in later again.. another 5 days of intensive training... really hates the bloody training... just hope that 2 years will pass really really fast... hope this coming week will turn out real fine and i'll get to book out again.. it's so precious for me... meeting up with my close brothers... man.. without them.. i think the feeling will be even worse... thanks to you guys i feel much better... thanks for everything.. for always being there.... i hope i can conquer myself soon...

lazyantics chapter 18

phew.. haven been blogging for so damn long.. somehow i don't really have the feeling to blog anymore cos I am so damn tired... went for national service for 2 weeks already... times are so freaking tough... this is how my daily schedule goes inside the home team academy.. wake up at 5.30 in the morning.. the first session of physical training is at 6.30 to 8.... 500 push ups and 1000 crunches.. somehow i feel the FI is like a remote control and the platoon is the tv... they just need to say like 45 degrees to the right on your palms down.. we have to go down in push up position.. then change to crunches position... after the 1st session... I think everyone is already trembling from the exercise.. then breakfast... 9.30 to 11... second session of physical training.. another 500 push ups and 1000 crunches.. I think my stomach is knife-proof now.. haha... after that is lunch.. gotta admit the food there is good.. haha... ever since i got in.. my appetite has been real good... eating alot.. think i gained a few pounds.. 3 to 6.. another 500 push ups and 1000 crunches.. in addition a 10 km run.. what the hell... imagine a life like this.. fu*k.. we are not allowed to have a watch.. we don't even really know the time at all.. just like robinson crusoe... after dinner we have night drill.. and it usually ends around 10... and lights out is at 10.30.. what the hell... smells like shit every day.... the FIs are assholes.. some are nice but most of them are serious bastards... think once one has encountered national service.. hirman's scoldings will feel like nothing anymore... haha.. seriously I shoulda go for national service earlier because most my squad mates are really childish.. some are sex-obessed.. talking about sex 24/7.. sick.. wonder what actually goes on in their minds... there's actually a gay in my bunk.. but he's nice.. someone who can talk to... been talking alot to him about the problems i have.. like love stuffs.. my life.. he always give interesting answers.. very nice person.. and don't discriminate them please.. they are actually nice people who are born this way... but national service life in the bunk is quite fun.. talks and jokes.. there are actually alot of funny people around... different people u never think u would encounter... I just hope the ippt test would faster come and then I don't have to suffer the training anymore... really so sick of this bloody shit... going to book in on sunday again.. hope i can meet up with some friends... aite... that's about all.. i'm tired.. turning in now.. see ya real soon..

lazyantics chapter 17

guys.. i am reporting for ns now already.. take care guys.. i love u guys and always will..

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woah.. just got back from zy's farewell party.. didn't really felt like going but I want to spend more time with my colleagues like linda, faizul and azmil and alot more..... was feeling really tired today.. cos maybe I did the minutes for the past meeting till 5 am in the morning.. woke up at like 10.30 am.. supposedly I wanted to prepare something but somehow thoughts came into my mind and like what if it ain't appreciated... so i went back into my room.. sat down and listened to music till 1... haha.. stupid me.. shoulda done it though.. shave my hair yesterday accompanied by my brother and freddy... slacked at my house.. i will wait for you... really.. hope u believe in me and give me a chance.....

lazyantics chapter 15

heard some news again that more people from the store is getting transferred... sadness begins to flow in deep and strongly again... second reshufflement going to come in already... and they always like to choose a time when the team has stabled down so fine and wonderfully... This TEAM is great... remembering the 1st ever day I started working in toys r us.. erwan orientated me and he was at that time quiet but nonetheless I learnt alot from him and he's my mentor... faizul.. i admire his style in working... I like the way he controlled and command the staffs to great efficiency... he's absolutely powerful... especially his scolding.. and bubbly linda.. without her there's wouldn't be someone so nice and lends such a great listening ear... dun look down on yourself... ya're 1 great supervisor... then there's hafiz... who me and sylvia actually taught him and now he's one key player.. good merchandising and speedy worker.. azmil.. when i first saw him.. i find him smelly... haha... but after that.. he's a great brother... and my cina adek siya who loves disturbing me but she's like blur and cock.. seeing her face alone coulda make me laugh.. haha.. zhuo wei nice brother who's not calculative and treats everyone with due respect... freddy tan who i always scold and always regretted.. and boss.. thanks for pushing me and teaching me about self confidence and belief... ya have this ability to build a great team.. everything u said is about teamwork and how we worked hand in hand... seriously under your guidance I have learnt alot of things.. even though I have disappointed you so many times but you never gave up on me and even promoted me to supervisor.. though shocked and astonished... I hope what I have done in the past few months had justified your trust in me... and alot of staffs who have lent me a hand and seriously help to get me to what i have achieved today... never have a chance to say all these before to you people but deep down in my heart... i bow and salute to you people.. thanks for everything.. you people make it special for me.. without you people i'm nothing... i love forum 4203 and I thought I never will... but it really did happens... cos u people realised this wonderful piece of history... i love u guys...

lazyantics chapter 14

off day after a heretic saturday where PIs and freaking ass-some customers conquer... lotsa customer service and a never die-down crowd... we hit the target and overshot by like almost 20k... good sales... but the customers are like arrogant and retarded... got really pissed by some of them.. freaking chinamen who don't want to buy their own country made stuffs... woke up late today to regain energy after 3 consecutive full shifts.. my next off day is on thursday.. tomorrow is full shift day again... argh... have to wake up early and she is coming back tomorrow.. missing someone really ain't easy job... another 7 mins to 2 am and i'll be going to bed.. don't wanna be late tomorrow cos linda working tomorrow morning shift.. haha... will be fun... but audit points again... shitty... hope tomorrow boss will be in a good mood again... hit sales budget again... go back early and enjoy myself for the remaining days... i realy hate this feeling of counting down the days.... haixxx.....

lazyantics chapter 13

saturday today... freaking busy day and today is irwan's last day at forum.. he's getting transferred to suntec... feeling really down... like this family is spilting up again like what have already happened to tampines.. first it was razali then irwan and the next one will be me already... feeling real speechless... got no one to like talk to.. how i wish she was here so she will listen... argh.. time passes really fast... another week is gone just like this... 2 weeks later i'm going to start my new life... i am feeling so lost noe... i really miss her now... cos i hope i can talk to her about how i sam feeling.. whatever.. off to bed...

lazyantics chapter 12

finally went back to work after 3 off days.. seriously I don't feel like working but I want to earn this amount of money before i go in.. I want to make sure I have some money set aside for my mom when I'm not around... cleared the whole freaking stagging and the toilet lane alone today.. woah.. feels so good when I cleared so many things.. counting down the days.. most probably about another 18 days only.... time passes really fast especially when it's like counting down.. boss is in a good mood today.. haha.. when he's in a good mood.. I felt that things go much more smoothly... haha... just envious why he can come to work late then go back at 5.30... good life eh.. did like pumping and sit ups yesterday.. today my arms was like OUCH!! whatever la.. I'm gonna continue this.. thoughts came into my mind today.. I want to try something I never try before.. waiting for a someone for 2 years or more.. regardless of the possible disappointment at the end or maybe a much welcomed celebration.. I just felt I really want to do this not for myself but for my heart... have been like dwelling around.. caught up with different people but nonetheless none have any outcome.. I think that good things are really meant to fight and wait for.. no matter how long.. mind felt really so free... mark my words.. I'll do the best I can... I'll wait...

lazyantics chapter 11

haven been blogging for like few days.. went out with my brother and my bestest friend yesterday.. went to book a bbq pit.. it's confirmed.. my farewell bbq is on 10 march friday at east coast park.. nice place... came up with shopping list.. woohoo.. getting me so worked up about this... went about town with them.. was real fun.. chatting and we came up with a new name for the group.. revolisherlocks.. ain't it cool.. haha.. no shit sherlock... we talked about the what might happened when i go for my national service.. funny shit like gays... funny stuffs la.. like when u bathe and u drop your soap.. don't bend down and pick it up or ya'll feel a sharp pain in your ass!! haha.. what the hell.. funny and scary.. then walked around looking for ring.. feel like getting a ring.. don't know why... was real cool man the 3 of us... i am really an idiot.. took alot of pictures.. memories are cool... man.. i got another 20 days.. really need to enjoy myself.. go out with people i seldom meet.. catch up the old times.. and cherish all those I'm having.. went out with freddy today for swimming.. freaking shocking though.. haha.. i think alot of people wouldn't expect that i'll be out with freddy... ya he was right... helping me have bonded our friendship somehow.. I always scold freddy at work but I don't mean to.. I draw a clear line over good work and play outside... but overall freddy is a nice guy... very sporting and nice to talk to.. i really did enjoyed the conversations today with him... treat him like a brother.. he actually fell twice into the pool and said he did it on purpose.. haha... he faked.. i can see he lost his footing.. haha.... found him naked.. freddy got no armpit hair.. has puberty hit him? haha... He was doing some silly actions inside the freaking cubicle.. haha.. caught him.. haha.. maybe that's what i might be going to experience inside national service... fun la.. dead right seriously enjoyed myself today even though was for a short 4 hours... freddy is a self-aclaimed panadol... haha.. whatever la.. heard from linda irwan is gonna get transferred to suntec.. y is that so? I dun understand.. forum is seriously lacking of staffs and now 1 more full timer have left and he's a good player in the store.. able to take care of certain important matters... fuck.. what's wrong with the management? I remember they spilt up tampines when I was there cos the reason?? we were too strong... sales was beating forum... wth.. then y should they spilt up... ya right.. most of us did benefit from it.. all got promotion but for me I would rather have the old times when me sylvia, dan, hsien, alison, bernard, chris, val, sharon, widzuan all have supper after night stacks... we even worked hard together just to get all these suppers going on... why should they do this? they should take out the black sheep and really get the store the best possible... after irwan gonna be me already... fuck man... I swear i will become the store director next time.. it's my dream always to work in toysrus but I will want to make a great store... and I will keep my best staffs.. and build a great team.. I will... and I'm gonna miss u these people... I love u guys...

lazyantics chapter 10

woah.. had a really tiring week.. victor my manager actually forgot to plan me off.. so I have been working from last sunday till yesterday... it feels shitty.. lack of sleep.. lack of staffs.. this really tires me out.. maybe i can get used to some training at national service.. wasn't such a happening week.. but was wondering why do guys have so much girls' problems cos was talking to azmil and faizul about it.. what we have experienced and gone thru.. there's alot of mistakes that we might have made in life sometimes.. but we actually learnt from these mistakes.. maybe it's part of growing up.. talk about my problem.. i'm not even sure whether it's a problem.. liking a person can also be hurting.. every word she said.. every action she take will affect you.. I'm not even sure where i'm heading to.. whether it's gonna work out.. but i won't give up... although i suffer a major heartbreak on vday.. but I don't know why I can't.. talked to azmil about it.. and he said that if it was him and he has a gun.. he woulda shot himself dead on the spot.. I felt that too.. furthermore I don't have all the time in the world as I'm going into ns soon.. and I can't actually be able to see her or ask her out that often anymore.. argh.. come to think of it.. I'm aching.. sat down outside borders for 3 hours.. thinking abt things.. I still don't know what i should do.. somehow she gave me a feeling that she's trying to make me give up.. I son't really know... argh.. forget it... stop thinking about it...

lazyantics chapter 9

heys.. today is valentine's day and it could be a really sad day for me... I was kinda looking forward to it even though it was a half chance given by her but nonetheless that half chance gave me excitment... I spent last night writing a song.. editing here and there... till 6 .. I was really tired and I have morning shift too... not a bad day at work... went down to receive truck with linda and we talked alot.. crapped alot.. I really enjoyed working with linda cos she's really nice to talk to and really cares for her friends.. I'm really damn happy to have her... went for break late.. when i came back.. there was still alot of work to be done and I really like wanted to finish all by 6 as I really wanted to watch a movie with her.. I started to rush and rush thru all my work... with the mindset of going out with her later... I just want to finish all by 6.. it was really fast and I felt capable.. bullshit.. and then when I was about to go to take the price gun and asked her what's the plans later.. I saw her friend with a bouquet of flowers for her.. omg.. tat really shatters my heart.. I turned back and went back into the stagging.. I dunno what to do and who to turn to.. si ya called and like ask me how was the plans later.. I said i failed.. I was late and I just dunno what to say.. I called linda and ask her to come stagging to accompany me.. I felt really devastated.. When linda was consoling me, I was holding back the tears.. I dunno why my eyes were watery.. I was trying my best to hold it back... linda was there consoling me and she too looked like she was gonna cry.. I'm touched.. I really was like banging into corners.. Argh.. punched cartons and cartons just to vent my disappointment.. was crazy.. went to dinner with linda after that.. talked about alot of things.. i actually wamted to crush the song and throw it away.. I really put in my efforts but I just feel it wasn't enough.. was real sad but im the end i still pass it to her.. just feel like letting her know despite the outcome.. I am really so serious.. never felt this way before.. It's hurting and painful.. maybe it isn't important to her but it does to me.. argh.. whatever la.. It's over.. but tjis feeling really sucks.. my brother accompany me.. talked to me and consoled me.. My brother is really great.. give me a hug.. and listened.. I dunno how things will be.. I can't give up... fcuk.. haixxxxxx............

untitled yet:::::
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell you I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line?
(Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line?
(Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line?
(Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

It totally am what I'm feeling now... nite guys.. and thanks to those who stand by my side and lend me their courage... i love u guys...

lazyantics chapter 8

ok guys.. It's official.. I'm getting enlisted on the 14th of march.. got enlisted into police.. I???!! A police!!!?? haha.. I think the law gonna get turned upside down.. about another 31 days of enjoyment and I'm getting into a whole new surrounding.. I really wonder how I'll actually react and blend into this new place... i really can't bear to leave toys yet smd I think i'm gonna ask boss whether I can come back and work part time.. haha.. crazy me.. somehow although sometimes i complain that the job is tiring and boring but I like to work here cos I like to do merchandising and I find satisfaction in it.. overall I'm happy... actually there's an incident in the morning tat happened tat got me smiling all the way on the cab for meeting.. but I just found out it means nothing much actually.. argh.. forget it.. maybe it wasn't to be.. got tricked by this miss yinyin as she told me her results suck and I was like worried about it.. She actually got 13 for 6 subjects.. that's not bad.. congrats to her.. every single day to me is very precious..I'm going to sing k later with yy later... haha...

Things I wanna do in this month:::::
1. Sing my heart out
2. Oasis concert
3. train up my stamina
4. Get a valentine (not possible)
5 Spend time with my close friends
6. Meet up my bros.
7. Clubbing with linda
8. Treat newton
9. Get that destiny gundam.
10. Try not to cry out on my last day.

lazyantics chapter 7

aite.. just got my computer up and running again.. I got a whole lotsa stuffs to write about... there's alot of stuffs that happened.. zabrina came back and she went for the sentosa outing that I organised.. played beach soccer.. had alot of fun cos there's alot of people who went for it.. think I went totally crazy that day.. but hope they see that after work I'm so amiable and crazy at play.. haha.. there's this funny incident that this old man foreigner was suntanning just by the water and while we're playing.. the water splashed onto him.. He looked like he was coming for me.. but he just threw the ball back.. maybe he shoulda just calmed down.. looked fierce.. we were there for about 6 hours or so but it was fun swimming, playing and chatting.. it kinda brought us closer to each other.. then came chinese new year.. bought alot of stuffs.. obey to xlarge to revoltage to surrender to stussy... i think i spent a hell lotsa money.. decided to save up.. back to work.. march is coming and I gotta go off really soon.. 4 years in this company.. I've learnt alot of things.. teamwork.. self-discipline.. functioning as a efficient unit and knowing new friends.. cool friends who have made a great impact in my life.. thanks to these people like syl.. dan.. xian.. ali.. faizul.. lin.. erwan.. su.. ken.. yoke.. hafiz and boss and alot more la.. it's like i'm living out these memories.. I'm stepping into another phase in my life.. but i'll miss these guys..