lazyantics chapter 5

just got back from singapore at around 6 plus.. missed work and I didn't inform the management but fuck it.. my relative staying in malaysia passed away.. and it's a close uncle of mine who used to tell me stories.. sad but after years not meeting him for years cos he wanted to stay in his native malaysia.. we weren't that close anymore..I'm very tired... rushed to penang at around 4 plus in the morning.. alot of rushing here and there.. very very tired.. not really sure whether should I go to work tomorrow cos I'm really tired from today's travelling..

lazyantics chapter 4

phew.. just got back from work.. tidied up my storeroom today.. at least it finally looks better.. haixx.. i'm basically late for work every single day.. I seriously need to change this freaking habit sooner.. cos if I'm really going to strive hard for my promotion.. I should really kick this habit away.. tonight's short-staffed again.. work like hell.. 10 people closing including yusoff and erwan.. tired sia.. never mind.. finally OFF!!!

lazyantics chapter 3

Had my off day today.. supposedly was planning to go out with kenneth and yoke but in the end, because of last night chilling outside Mac.. most of us woke up late but even worse was that yoke didn't even pick up the call at all.. big ass... spent the whole day designing this script.. looking into websites to find some related codes and all.. until about 9 plus that I'm finally done with this.. but I'm really sad.. things between me and her seems to be getting from bad to worse... I seriously don't understand what's the freaking problem.. why do I need to explain every single thing? Why? Why do I have to explain to her like I'm in the wrong when actually she's making a fuss out of nothing.. when I have my off day.. I'm often too tired to move.. and I always leave my phone in my bag thus I always couldn't hear it ringing and she complained I don't find her important.. Why can I do all these last times.. fuck man.. things changed.. I used to be working part time at starhub.. I got like 5 days off.. and now I'm practically working every single day that I'm so tired I can't even go swimming at all... why can't she understand despite me explaining all these to her so many times before... I'm seriously so sick of all these that I felt like giving up so much already but in the end... thinking back of all those memories that we have and the way she took care of me.. I don't bear to.. She's a very nice girl.. but what's the freaking problem.. I can't work this out anymore.. cos I tried to so many times that I think I'm going down.. sometimes when I'm sitting there alone.. I wonder will I be better off if I was alone.. doing the things I want.. buy whatever I want to.. go clubbing whenever I want.. even work like hell for the overtime pay.. When I first joined forum.. it's because she always ask me to accompany her and not wanting to disappoint her.. I MIA and then I lost my chance of promotion and hirman loses his trust in me.. he felt disappointed in me.. I really regret all this.. I coulda get the promotion and really I can do it.. but who believes.. fuck man... if I have the chance to turn back time.. I really will grab the chance with my life.. I really can do it.. really... but it will never comes back...

lazyantics chapter 2

working full shift today.. had a quarrel and almost fight with yoke.. a misunderstanding.. damn fucking tired.. everyone has no discipline.. after settling my stagging.. i still have to go out to do straightening for boys alone at 10... yoke has to do girls and kenneth has to do sports and outdoor.. what was siti and banu doing??? I don't know.. was damn pissed off.. I felt really guilty to have treated yoke that way... maybe it's all the pressure I have been getting? Everyone likes to ask me this and that.. sometimes I felt irritated.. can't they use their eyes and check before coming to ask me.. I know I have alot of responsibilties but I can't do everything alone.. seriously I felt lucky to have yoke and kenneth.. some sort of a clique.. but at least with them I know I can easily get my things done the way I want.. they are my key players and I want to teach them every single thing I know.. work seems to be my only pastime now.. nothing much.. going out with the both of them later.. was chilling at mac jus now.. talked alot.. laughed alot.. did enjoyed ourselves.. I'm really pleased with the way things are going for me at work.. really..

lazyantics chapter 1

This is my second blog. I just got the urge to start writing again. again? I don't know..